The day my heart died

by Tammy Crockett
(Bastrop La USA)

Holli Crockett

Holli Crockett

I was spending the night at my sisters when I got the call from my husband that the police were at our house and that our daughter Holli had been killed.

For the longest time I kept saying that phrase "Holli is dead" over and over in my mind, but it just doesn't seem real. How can it be. I had talked to her the day before. She just turned 21 in February. She was moving in to her first home and had a job she loved. She had her whole life ahead of her and now they are telling me she is gone.

I am so heartbroken that I cannot breathe. She was my best friend as well as my daughter. She took care of me as much as I took care of her. I do not know how I am going to face each day without her. I just want to see her and make sure she is ok, but I know that is not possible because she is not ok.

I see this stuff happen every day, but I never never thought it would happen to me.
They say it gets better with time, but I sure cannot see that now. She was my holli waddles, my goofball, My tormentor during the terrible two's. She was the light of my life and now she is my broken heart.

How do I get through this.......... How do I go on without her.

I have always been able to handle anything that has come my way, but this one I can't. This is more than I know what to do with.

I had her for 21 years.

And that just was NOT enough.

Fatal Accident on LA Hwy 139

Sunday, April 9th, 2006 11:04:05

An early morning car accident leaves one dead and another in the hospital. It happened around 3:30 this morning on Louisiana Highway 139 near Perryville.

State Police say Holli Crockett was pronounced dead when they arrived. She was the front seat passenger in a 2003 Cavalier driven by J***** W*** of Bastrop.

Troopers say the couple was headed North when W*** veered off of the left shoulder. He then struck a concrete culvert, sending the car airborne.

State Police say the car rotated in the air and collided with a large tree roof-first. Police had to extricate W*** and Crockett from the vehicle. West sustained moderate to serious injuries and was transported to Morehouse General Hospital.
The driver was the man she was to marry.
He came away with an injured arm and then claimed she was driving.

His blood alcohol level was .19---twice the legal limit.

The judge had the nerve in court to say " this would be a simple DWI but there is a dead girl involved so...".

They did not want to prosecute him and I do believe if it were not for the Madd organization coming down from Shreveport La and sitting in court that they wouldn't have.

They even asked us if we wanted them to prosecute him for a DWI or did we want to go with vehicular manslaughter.

He was sentenced to 20 years for vehicular manslaughter and he has to serve 10 years before he can come up for parole.

Because of him being so intoxicated it was considered a violent crime.


In loving memory of
Holli Nicole Crockett
Feb 9, 1985 -- Apr 9, 2006
Bastrop, Louisiana USA

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Feb 14, 2015
Living Heart
by: Halo

I found this site by accident.

When I saw Holli's beautiful picture in the light, of one moment on Earth, I thought of my own blue-eyed redhead, and how I worry when she's out on the road.

I understand that it feels like your heart died, but it has not. I've read what you've said;
Holli is your heart, and she is strong.

Happy Valentines Day, Holli.

Jan 21, 2015
Please disclose all facts?
by: Anonymous

I am so sorry for you loss! Please disclose all the facts that her alcohol level was just as high and had she'd been driving, it would be her sitting in jail.

Jul 10, 2014
by: Anonymous

I am so sorry for your loss. There are no words to describe how horrible that is. I can't even begin to think about how horrible this is.

Holli was a wonderful girl. She was your light. She was a part of your heart. I KNOW. I UNDERSTAND. Your heart is shattered and you are cutting yourself on the pieces. But from here, though each day may seem like a dark tunnel, and there may be an air of heaviness, I want you to know that there is nowhere to go but UP. and that someday you will not forget her, but manage to come to peace with your lot in life, and to accept it all. I am not saying her death was nothing. I am saying the opposite. I cannot describe how much i wish for you and pray for you, so i will just say this.

-Il mio amore, il mio cuore, mi ricorderò di voi
(My love, My heart, i will remember you)

Dec 07, 2013
by: Mo Kowal

I would love to see MADD Canada help publicly explain the role of LCBO/Liquor Server front line staff within the community.

Staff at our store receive threats to their personal safety in refusing service to intoxicated/2nd party individuals. Small town stores appear to be more vulnerable to "community clique".

Nov 11, 2013
Open the mind and soul
by: Anonymous

story changed my life about drinking and driving and will help me grow.Thank you for giving me the opportunity to read this story REST IN PEACE

Oct 08, 2013
I am so sorry.
by: Kathryn Alexis

I am so sorry for your loss. I know how that feels. I am only fifteen, and I have had four of my friends die in a car accident. People say that it gets better in time, and that's true. The only thing is most people can't heal on their own. I have someone to help me, but it still hurts. If I could find a way to help people that have lost loved ones in alcohol-related accidents, I would. NO ONE DESERVES THAT KIND OF PAIN!

May 07, 2013
I was touched!
by: Anonymous

I'm sorry for your loss. I haven't been through anything like this. I'm 14 years old and I'm doing a project on drunk driving. I hope you are doing better. Drunk driving is not a joke and people should really think about what they are doing. So many people are injuried and killed from drunk drivers. I want you to know I'm truly sorry for your loss!

Apr 17, 2013
I am trully sorry for your lose!
by: Anonymous

I know how hard it is to lose someone, due to someone else's actions and it is one of the worst pains in the world. My lose was not of a child but, the lose of my father when i was 11 years old and even after almost ten years of him being gone i still find myself wondering, is he ever going to come through that door again. I would like for you to know that even though i may not know you or your family, but my prays are with you and the lose of your daughter. I understand the pain in your hearts and i shall pray for the aching in all of your hearts to decrease :'). God bless you and amen to you all.

Mar 20, 2013
you WILL get better!
by: Anonymous

I know you will get through this. I really don't know what it is like,
but you may always miss her but as time goes by you should remember the happy things in her and your life. When that happens it will not be as sad. I hope you feel better soon!

Mar 01, 2013
extrication videos
by: holli's mom

These are the extrication videos of Holli and Jeremy. They are not graphic but I do think they should be shared. Feel free to share these links. Much love, holli's mom

Part one

Part two

Part three

Mar 01, 2013
by: Anonymous

how sad

Mar 01, 2013
It all gets better (:
by: Ruby

I am very sorry to hear about your loss 6 years ago Hollis mom. I now how it's like, losing someone, but overtime, the pain lifts away piece by piece. No guarantees that it will disappear forver, but all in good time. God knows. (: I read your story and your daughter is/was beautiful. And i bet she had an amazing personality to go with it. Once again, I am sorry to hear about that. God bless you (:

Feb 27, 2013
God bless you
by: K.H

I am so sorry to hear about your daughter and I can't promise your pain will go away but it does get better. It doesn't seem like it but it will take a while to get used to the loss. I am against drunk driving because my cousin was killed in an accident and I see these kind of accidents all the time because of my uncles job as a tow truck driver. God bless you and your family and I'll pray for you!!!

Jan 16, 2013
Bless You
by: Bob Coulter

I too lost a (brother) aged 21 many years ago due to a drunk driver. i still think of him often, it hurt so bad at the time, it will get easier in time for you im sure but you will never forget the pain you felt when you were told the terrible news.
God Bless You,.

Aug 30, 2012
thank you!!
by: holli's mom

Thank you for your comments! They mean so much to me. It has been 6 years 4 months 24 days since my girl gained her wings. It never goes away, but yes it does get "different". People don't think I have gone on with my life because I still bring holli up. I have continued to "live". I have a job, spend time with friends and family. But that does not mean that I never had a daughter. Does not mean that she is not on my mind every second of the day. It doesn't mean that I don't come across a mother and daughter and think about what my life would be like if she was still here. I will forever be the mother of an angel named holli. That will never change. And even though I go through moments of grieving where it feels like she has just died, that doesn't mean that I have stopped living. It just means I live in a different way now. Holli will always be a part of my world. She visits me in my dreams and leaves pennies and dimes for me. Sometimes I feel her presence strong around me. I still fight everyday to defend her against his family saying she was driving. I even posted the extrication videos online. If you Google her name you can find them. Anyway, I just wanted to thank you for commenting. I really appreciate it. Hugs and prayers, holli's Mom.

Aug 29, 2012
Im so sorry for your loss:(
by: Hollie Newman

I really am sorry for your loss. im 17 years old and from fannin county georgia. I have a story to tell you:
last summer one of my best friends was driving one of his "friends" around, and they were drinking. well, my friend was teaching his "friend" how to huff air duster and lost control of the vehicle and struck a family from Florida. I t killed two of her kids, and paralyxed her soon for the rest of his life. my friend that did this is only 17. he is fixing to get his trial and he is getting charged with two counts of murder:( its sad it really is but it was his own fault and know the johnson family has to suffer without haveing there babie. so i feel youu. you lost your baby to someone being stupid and they eill never be able to bring her back. but i bet that she is in heaven waiting on you to get to her. i bet that she watches your every move and she misses you just as much as you miss her. god bless! (If you ever wanna talk, here is my email address:

Feb 19, 2009
I know the pain
by: kim petry

I am so sorry for your loss, I lost a niece on 02-11-07 she was 16. I know the pain will never go away. so sorry for your loss

Jun 18, 2008
Time does not heal all wonds they just become different!!!
by: Lorri Standley

I am so sorry to read your loss. It is as shocking as most I read if not worse. I cant believe they asked you if you wanted him to get the duii??? What is wrong with our system.??? It sounds so much like my brother Davids crash as well as death. The person driving the car that KILLED my brother tried to say that my brother was also the driver, my guess is cause he was dead and could not defend himself, but we as a family did. The driver got 15.8 years and not a day early can he get out.. Thank the lord for that, this was his 4th yep 4th duii. He stole my brothers life on my 35th B'day. What a surprise huh..... Good luck and hold on tight, it's a very bumpy ride the first two years and sometimes even longer. I am still a mess... I have found that it has not gotten easier for me, but it has gotten different. I hope you better luck then me... Love to your whole family, stick together dont let this pull your family apart. That is what happened to ours...

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